Posted by: Psal121 | December 31, 2013

What 2013 taught me

I had some significant Ahha moments in 2013. The Lord taught me many of them through experiences. There were some crying moments, but there were several celebrations. I have learned at least five things this year.

1. Journaling what God does in your life is the best way to build your faith. Through chronicling my year I have watched God work in a way I never noticed.

2. Everyone needs rest. God modeled it for us when He created the world. I took Him at His word and made time for rest.

3. He is a provider. I know He is a provider because He provided for me this year, but each time He does it I am elated with joy and wowed like it is the first time.

4. God will teach you experientially if you let Him. Watch and learn. Some of my most powerful moments have been through the lives of others. I praise Him for that because I don’t have the energy to experience it all.

5. He is the best gift. He gave me a lot this year, but the best part has been getting to know Him.

It has been a fun year with lots of learning, and being able to see and measure the progress. My challenge to you is do some stuff you have not done before. Go some places you have never been. When you trust God with your life, the adventure starts.


God will never form something without filling it with purpose and power. What has God purposed and empowered you to do? – Bishop TD Jakes

Posted by: Psal121 | October 16, 2013

i love you more

So I have been in Bible study long enough to know the whoever the main character is in the study, we are going to have some simliar experiences. God always teaches me with practical lessons. He appreciates head knowledge, but He wants to see what you really learned.
This week is taking me to new places in my faith. Kind of like Peter walking on water, you try to keep your eyes on Jesus, but the water is doing things you have never seen it do before. As a result you have to decide what you are going to do. Are you gonna believe you situation or are you gonna believe God?
Today I have been meditating on Ephesians 3:20-21. He is able to do more through me than I can even imagine. I believe it.
As each new ridiculous situation presents itself to me, it causes me to love the Lord more. Is my faith so valuable that it takes all this to come against it? The Bible tells me it is. As much as I would like to stare at the situations and let them take hold of me, I need to keep my eye on the one who controls it all. To Him who is able to keep me from falling and present me faultless before the throne, to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority through Jesus Christ our Lord before all ages now and forevermore! Amen.

Posted by: Psal121 | August 23, 2013

Stop Fighting Your Blessing

The Lord taught me a lesson this week, through someone else. (I like those types of lessons)I don’t believe that you have to be in a struggle to learn from God. Sometimes He sits you in places to hold up other people, but teach you His good word.

I have a friend who has spent years praying for God to help her family as they dealt with an issue around her adopted son. Dedicated parents, she and her husband used every resource available to her. While these resources would put band aids on it, it was not fixing the issue.
She enlisted the prayers of family and friends. Sometimes we pray and expect lightning fast miracles. When we don’t see it we get disappointed. I was one of the ones praying. I was expecting lightning fast miracles.

This past week it all came to a head. As my friend told the story of how the school district sent her a letter explaining that her son would be placed in an alternative school, I felt awful for her. But my friend was ready to do battle. She was not going to let the district label her son. He had never had any behavioral issues at school, and she would use everything within her power to stop this.
As she listed all of the things she was prepared to do to fight this, I prayed Lord this is awful. You have promised to protect your little ones, how could you let this happen to him? She called the TEA (Texas Education Agency), the district, the school that had kicked her son out. She and her husband wrote letters. She referred to herself as an insane, mad psycho mama bear. But who isn’t about their child? They took those letters to the district and waited for a response. I thought “Wow, Lord, how you gonna fix this?”

Now, most of the year Mama Bear had been praying for the Lord to make sure her son was exactly where he was supposed to be. As a mom, you always want the best for your child. She was not gonna let this placement happen without a fight.

A meeting had been set up for the parents to meet the teacher and the principal of the alternative school. Representatives from the district administration were also suppose to join them. She and her husband were ready to take them on.

As the Mama Bear and her husband sat down and met with the teacher and principal (no sign of the administration), the anger began to melt away. The teacher who would be in charge of their precious cargo was perfect. She was skeptical at first, but the more they talked, the more she knew this was the answer to her prayers.

After this teacher asked a few questions, she revealed that she had adopted a child from the same country as they. As a matter of fact the children had come from the same orphanage. This teacher understood in depth all that the Mama Bear had gone through because it had been her journey too.
“So, at that point, my heart softened, a peace like I can’t even humbly explain washed over me. I knew that prayers for (him) to be exactly where he was supposed to be had been answered,” she said.
Not only does your son have a safe place to learn and grow, but Mama Bear has some women who can relate to her journey.

My takeaways, God does not leave us alone on the journey. He will always send some to help us along the way.
Behind our biggest fights are some of the sweetest blessings. Look at that thing you are fighting right now, it could be the answer to your blessing.
I had to stop and ask the Lord, where I am fighting your blessing? Reveal that to me.

Finally, remember the battle is the Lords. As much as I like a good fight, I have to remember that this is not my battle. What good is gonna come from this fight? How is God gonna be glorified?
This message spoke to me. God don’t need us to fight. He needs us to get out of His way.

Posted by: Psal121 | June 19, 2013

New Season

Lately, I have been really tired, but that is because I am burning the candle at both ends. I am excited about this new season in my life. I am learning new things and meeting new people. I am praying Lord, please don’t let me embarrass you.

But I am also learning to pace myself. I admit I am started out the gate pretty quick and need to slow down.  Currently I am attending two bible studies this summer – both Beth Moore- one is the Law of Love, a study of Deuteronomy and the other is Jesus One and Only.  I just loved the thought of studying with both groups of women.

I am finishing up a major project, Wicked & Redeemed: Women of the Bible. I still can’t believe God did this through me. I thought it would be impossible. But I am learning experientially that all things are possible through Christ for those who are called according to His purpose.  I can’t wait for you to see this video. I hope it speaks to you.

I will have a preview of the production in July. Afterwards, it will be available to screen at churches throughout the area. After the preview party, I will post a trailer for it online. Let me know if you are interested in screening it.

I thank God for all who have participated.  I thank Him for all He is doing in my life. I am humbled.


Posted by: Psal121 | May 30, 2013

May 2013

May 2013.

Posted by: Psal121 | May 10, 2013

Season Closing

A season in my life is closing. I have taught children for seven years in Bible Study Fellowship and that season ends Monday night. It has been a blessing. I have learned and grown through the process.
God has taught me how to tell a story, using some of the best examples there are: the bible.
As I looked around the leadership circle this morning at 5am, I thought about how I am going to miss those ladies. I pray I don’t forget the practices God has taught me through this part of the journey. It has been valuable.
But I know it is time to move on because He has given me a passion for the pursuits He has placed in my heart. He has taught me the importance of spreading the gospel. He has taught me how to deliver it to people who do not want to hear it.
I am not the person I was when I started this process. God is continuing His good work in me.

Posted by: Psal121 | April 6, 2013

This is Going to Hurt

Sugar is an addiction. Detoxing my body from it is misery. Yet it is giving me the opportunity to experience what it means that in my weakness He is strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9) In my year of fasting, this month I am fasting from sugar. I did not think that all of the sweet things from life would disappear with it. My head hurts, my mood is fowl. I don’t know how anyone can get a blessing out of this.

I feel like Jonah walking through Nineveh. God gives me a word. I pass it on, and the recipient runs off shouting praises to God because it is what they had been waiting on. I feel like, “Really, God, you can give them a life long word, but not change my foul mood or make my head stop hurting.”

Because I was obedient this morning, God sent me a very personal word.  I won’t share my personal word with you, but I will give you some observations I made during this session.

It was at the Women’s Fellowship this morning at OCBF that I heard “it is in the dark places we find Him and who He is.”  I have found him more in the last six days of this month than I have found Him all year.  He sends me a message saying I am about to tell you something so listen. When the message comes it is so overwhelming that I know beyond the shadow of a doubt, it is for me.

Our speaker today gave her testimony, which was very powerful. She titled her message, Redeemed, but Dead. I know we can relate because there are many dreams in us we feel have died.  She taught out of Ephesians 2:10.  We are God’s workmanship and He put good works in us to bring Him glory. She challenged us to remember John 11:4.

She said where ever He is, there is life.

So where ever this message finds you, remember where He is, there is life.


Posted by: Psal121 | March 22, 2013

A New Name

This is the third time I have studied the book of Genesis and because there are so many years in between I seldom remember my key learning.  Through the process of blogging and journaling I hope to have a better handle on it.

This year I am struck by Jacob who named the places where he encountered the Lord.  This week Jacob struggled with God and his name was changed to Israel.  Jacob marked the spot by naming it (Genesis 32:30) He named the place Peniel which meant “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.”

This stands out to me because if I had named my previous encounters with the Lord and revisited them, there would be little doubt to what the future holds in times of struggle. I have decided that this year I will name my encounters with God and leave markers behind that will remind me of His character.

I have finished the novel, Connections and am very excited about the story. I love how God used me to tell a fictional story.  The characters which are fun and real, deal with everyday life situations along with the extraordinary circumstances they are placed in.

As I said previously, this was not a project I had planned at the beginning of the year, it was something God brought to  me.  I am trying to be open to God changing my agenda because I know if He brings me to it, He will bring me through it.  I love how He brought me through Connections.

I look forward to the rest of the journey.

Posted by: Psal121 | February 27, 2013

February Valentine

It has become God’s habit lately to speak to me through me as I minister to others. (So if I am talking to you and stop in the middle of the conversation, know that God has just given me a word.)

I am a happy content single woman. God gave me a vision years ago that singleness is not something He wants for me, but will change it in His own time.  He has been preparing me for what married life will be like. He has me praying over a successful marriage.  I am waiting expectantly for this man.

Let me tell you I love being single. It is God and me and the adventures are endless.

Here is what I heard from God this month and maybe it will help some of  my single brothers and sisters. I was talking to someone about my singleness.

God gave me a vision for some things He is accomplishing in my life as a single.  There are some tasks He is planning on accomplishing through me.  God has not completed those tasks so it can’t be time yet for me to take on a new vision with someone else.

When I get married, the vision changes. It becomes something else in conjunction with someone else.

God is not going to start one task until another one is accomplished.  He is a God of order.

So if you are holding off on that thing God called you to do until you meet Mr or Ms Right, you might be delaying your own blessing.

I am learning to be content whatever my situation, but I am pressing on toward the goal of the things He has called me to.

Posted by: Psal121 | January 30, 2013

The Road to the Promised Land

This year’s blog will focus more on what is happening with me. I am trying to focus on what God is calling me to and not do so much busy work. There are lots of good things to be involved in so it is easy to become entangled into things that have nothing to do with what you are called to do.

I started the year with a good fast, and I am trying to apply parts of it to my everyday life because I want God to be active in my every day life.

He gave me this great project to work on. It is a great novel that I can’t wait to share with you. Here is the lesson. It wasn’t what I was working on. It wasn’t what I had planned for this year. It wasn’t even in my five-year plan. But I know that God’s timing is perfect and if this is what He wants, it is what I want.

The projects I was working on are on the sidelines. This one is blossoming and growing. I can’t wait to see what He does with it. 2013 is going to be an amazing year.

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